Currently living a typical mugger's life.

im looking forward to oc.
so i better mug hard and clear phy.

but it's not like i dw clear.
it's like...

hard.

kinda speechless..



i dk la.
im feeling neutral.
but v argh.
physics.



oh shit.
i have been an unhealthy kid.

lots of chocs plus lots of slp.
oh zzz.

and i think im getting sick sooooon.



off to diner =.

thn mug.



WHY?
mixed thoughts.
random thoughts.


have been rather tired these few days .
omg
plus plus the pile of work waiting ,
seriously, it's faint-able .
omg


but i take back my words .
i mean, it's kinda impossible to not online / blog etc la .

life has been rather life-less .
if i quit these ,
thn seriously ~
omg


ive been thinking.
it doesnt seem real.
life.




oh f.
how can u be the reason for my mood-swing.



sweat + cold sweat.



too much .



i ve been napping everyday !
seriously, shag.

but im happier after napping.
today's nap = 4plus hrs !
(:

damn happy.

but but but but but !
i gian more easily ):

eat, nap.
wake, bathe, eat. -.
argh.

okie.


im quite a happy person tofay (((:



wah f .
oh f.


mood hasnt been good.
gg.

omg.

i dk.

argh...

i ve dded to sac my online time. (:

bZ life.

will blog after camp (:



o life.
woah life.



一生爱错放你的手。
random.


okieok,
seriously seriously
dieing.

nites world.



i v shag T.T

i dk why.
but im v tired.
argh.

i completed the grid.
okie, so called completed.
like i took 3 plus plus plus hrs ?



came to a conclusion.........
it's no longer my choice ?
LOLS.

i found out,
sometimes...
there's really no such place called the 'friends zone'.
lols.

met up w kel today (((:
as usual , nice chat.

yihui-er was at jp !
it's so coincidental.
lols,
in a gay-ier tone,
it's called xin you ling xi !
LOLS !

hahas,
saw yanbin they all too.
lols.

巧 ttm.

ps. photos will be uploaded.



oh well.
i ve got no choice,
am i not right?



HAPPY HAPPY .
but tired.

i miss my girls ))):



刘亮鹭 - 好听

你说的话我都相信
说得好听说得甜蜜
你说的每一句我都相信

为了爱情失了聪明
听你的话闭上眼睛
这个梦多美丽让它继续

你说的话总那么好听
你爱不爱我不能确定
也许你只把他当游戏
我却爱得太用力


你说的话我都相信
说得好听说得甜蜜
你说的每一句我都相信

为了爱情失了聪明
听你的话闭上眼睛
这个梦多美丽让它继续

你说的话总那么好听
你爱不爱我不能确定
也许你只把爱当游戏
我却没那么聪明

你说的话总那么好听
你爱不爱我不想确定
我会关掉你送的手机
然后静静不去理

你说的话总那么好听
你爱不爱我不想确定
我会关掉你送的手机
然后静静静静
是再也不去理








WELL WELL WELL WELL WELL.

shag ttm.
okie.

i wanna spam pics, but pretty lazy lehs.

btw,
i got myself a shoe.
but i kinda regret alr ):



u make it sound like u understand.
u make it sound like u reflect.

but what i wanna say?
it's a BIG LOL.

im not good, i know.
but i dont think u are either.

idk.



know what.

u can see the ugliest side of human beings..

when ?



during a competition.

when one's participating in a race.

when one's doing a major test.

when one's fighting for a drop of water.



well.



the sad truth is.

at least imo,

everyone has that ugly side?



idk.

i think i still havent feel it yet.

but u know it's a sooner or ltr kind of thing.

im scared.



this world is crazy. =.







okie.

back to reality.

away from such thoughts.



well,

i have been nappping daily.

but im still v tired?



know why,

cos i tend to slp ltr if i took a nap =.



and im falling sick =.

zzz.

i used to love gg to the doc!

well, in otr words, u can say that i love falling sick ?



but nono.

no longer.

i mean,

i still hope lurh.

but opportunity costs know ~

zzz.



well.

getting so econs ~



okie,

im starting to like econs btw ! (:

haha.

it's a positive sign ?



my back still ache,

i told mum bout it.

but..

i think she forgets.

well, i choose to tell her at early 7am just b4 i step out of hse this morn ?



LOLs.



okie,

camp's coming.

chem test's coming too !

shall mug.



bb.



ps. noticed why there's so many spacing in between? (the paragraph thingy.
know , the entre button ? )
lols,
that's cos im sorta a v sway blogger?
lols.
will encounter some prob when blogging de.
thn when edit from drafts,
it comes with all the spacing and stuffs.

well,
im no longer a hardworking blogger.
so im v lazy to 'backspace' all the para thing.

ahhaah.

bear w it (:



OMG.
u know i told dad bout the phone thing?

and like..

okie.
dad : '' you v sway, use what phone what phone spoil! '' ( and he keeps laughing=. )

mum : ''mayb u dont suit ex phone, u shld change phone w me..''

bro : '' u know what, some phones only can contain photos of pretty girls....''
mum adds on : ''eh, means u not pretty! ''


okie,

and and and....
i just rch home not long ago..
and once i steeped home i cant stop laughing man.
seriously! omg.


mum makes a tissue-box-size pencil box for me !
HAHAHA.

but it's nice la.
just big.

mayb can make into bag.

oh LAUGHOUTLOUD !



逞强



idk has become my favourite ans.
no matter i know or not
lols.

okie,
my phone isnt well too =.

as in,
u cannot call me la !
it will blankout or something?
and cos it's touchscreen,
thn thn thn...
i cannot see which one is pick up de icon.
thn thn,
the only button? bar? lols, available to press ,
is to kup the phone one !
LOLs.

(ps. mel, yeah u FINALLY smartly txt me. but pick up my call =. )



idk.
i sometimes hope u start conver at the right time.
i mean, thr are times when i thought of starting,
but it's weird.
lols. so no matter what, waiting is the only opt? (:



idoubttheycantell.
lols.



im not a christ.
but it's kinda amazing how the fb god msg sorta ....
idk.

relevant?



took a nap.
i think i can actually slp till tmrw, if dad doenst wake me for diner.

not much appetite,
i mean.
im heaty.
sick.
i dont dare to take tempt yet...
but this goes on,
i may need a doctor soooon =.



刘嘉亮 - 求求你给我个机会

一个人喝醉
好象找个人来陪
我们之间有太多的误会
爱不能再沉睡
是可悲 是追悔
我不要再为谁掉眼泪

爱过才后悔
想要用酒来麻醉
我们之间有太多的误会
爱不能再沉睡
是可悲 是追悔
我不要再为谁而心碎

求求你给我个机会
不要再对爱说无所谓
如果相爱是完美
就让我们用真心去面对

求求你给我个机会
不要再对爱说无所谓
留下了太多伤悲
告诉我 你到底 爱着谁




shagged.

nvr so jialat b4.
well, im in j2.

if if if,
i manage to complete my hmwk,
then it will be the 1st year since mayb p3? that i complete my holis work =.

argh.

okie.
im left with econs and chem.
but im really really tired.
idk why.
i dont think i dicnt know games and mass dance itself will cause me to be so shag?
or mayb cause i hvn got ENOUGH sleep for past week?

that means,
i doubt i wil ever have enough this year le la.
except mayb holis and weekends?
damn.

no wonder im falling sick.

idk, slp early, cant finish work, dont fall sick, can concentrate in class.
but slp late, can finish work?, will most prob fall sick (like acc my immune system =.), and cant concentrate v well in class.

HOW?



曲名：其实很爱你 歌手：张韶涵

离开不会太悲伤
有些心情该释放
直到眼泪它自己落下
才发现骗不了自己
其实很爱你
现在学着去遗忘
躲开有你的地方
回忆被谁放在书架上
把他从最高的地方落下
感动越是深刻
寂寞就越伤人喔
每个人的心里都
会有一段伤痕
像白纸的天真
仿佛被你伤得好深
相爱不需要理由
离开也没有理由挽留





it's not that i cant forget.
it just...
have become a phobia?


okie,,
some thoughts while eating diner...


(** if lazy, u can just close this page, or read the bold words.)
the rest quite crap.
i mean, it's not in v. proper sentence.
lols.

u know right,

when i got back to msia during dec 09,,

we met mum's fren la.
her 'god brother' when they were in sec sch ?
lols.
( yeah, they have such things tooo ! )


kie, he's good.
i mean, he treat our family diner lurh.
** got crab de okie !!! **

haha, and crab hor, in my family like only me and mama eat?
lols.

oh did i mention i my uncle bought omost RM200 of crabs ?
2 meals.
anw anw, yeah la,
i neeed thank him BIG BIG .
cos mainly is cause i want eat?
and he paid for my rebonding AGAIN.
like, 4th years !
omg !



okie ok, sidetracked.

anw,
my mummy like help ''pull string'' for her godbro and her v good fren la.
and?
SHE SUCCEEDS!
sooooo coool right !

omg.



kie,

anotr thing i wanna say.

so her godbro, open something like restaurant with his bro.

and...

idk..

it's like quite...

they spilt the water bill,

and pay their own elect bill..

and there's lots la.



i mean,

it's idk..



i mean...



what i wanna say is...

like,

the environment we grow?

it's like,

u wont so-called share ur allowance with ur siblings right?

humans are selfish.

like, even towards siblings?



idk.

isit a natural thing ?

or isit the environment?

imo, i think is the environment.



so i randomly think..

that next next next time,

ages ltr,

if i have kids right.



( i mean i doubt i will have...

1. i dont love children.

2. max i prefer is 1 child.

and MOST IMPORTANTLY, i think i wont/cant even jia chu qu la ! )



LOLS.

okiw,

i will make sure...

i mean,

i will wann to have this kind of trad :

put aside idk how much for them like eg 200 bucks extra.

and that's all.

this 200 bucks right, idk and im not gonna say how they are gg use it,

and who's gonna use it/ use more etc.

but they will have to sort it out themselves,

and when they wanna take the bucks to buy things,

get their sibling signature/acknowledgement/agreement thn can le.

one can oso use like the full sum.



idk.

im tinking too much,

i owaes do.

but i think it's kinda bad la.

to have siblings like mayb fight or wat due to money issue.

and mean, it's ur kin lehs.

and very close one la.

and one gonna cause of money and like..

spilt things till so =.=

i wont allow that !!!

(yeah, though i do bother too)

but , i wont.

environment is v.important.



i think.



thoughts.
past.
i mean, we are standing on the vv neutral stand, arent we?

kiek,
life kinda sucks,
im not getting enough slp lurhs.
but it's good i still get to nap ?\
but but..
still VERY VERY tired.

idk.
idk what i want.
i think..
im not a v happy person.
idk.

i dont need a v wow life,
nth is gg wrong,
but it isnt good,
IF im not happy right?

i mean,
so what if one has everything,
IF he/she isnt happy,
what's the point?

yeah,
not many will be happy if they have everything?
that's why.
idk.

and it isnt something i shld be thinking..
i love to think i 烦 bout things that are like... none of my concern?

argh.

okie,
im having ulcers? lols.
i still dk how to spell !

okie,
and idk ,
throat pain..
but but but..
im still eating chocs.
wj got me some as sourvenirs (:
and mama bought lots tooo ~
lols.
it's bad.
but i cant help but eat? =.

back pain..
frm dance 2 weeks ago ?
idk,
i mean,
it's normal for dancers to get 黑青?
but it's not very normal for me lehs?
plus plus,
it's been 2 weeks !!!



HONESTLY,

studious / hardworking .
are compliments imo.
lols (:

aiming to be one.
like..
a v 'pro' type? LOLS.
= nerd i suppose?
LOL.



SOLAR ECLIPSE !!!



曲名：永远的愚人
歌手：蔡淳佳

忘了夜里几点
你出现在电话另一边
说分手后已很久不见
忽然有相念
忘了是第几遍
你出现在这样一个夜
说你感到一点点后悔
有点想挽回
可笑的是我
听见千遍万遍还无法防备
别再说我还在你心里面
别再说你对我还有依恋
不要再说着我熟悉的谎言
因为我还会期待它们实现
别再用你的柔情笑靥
别再说应该留在我身边
不要再对我说重复的谎言
因为我还会再次陷在里面




SELF-CENTERERD
maybe.
but..
it's impossible for one to care so much bout others right?



it's gonna hurt when it heals too.
did u know i really love you ?



Self-denial

i just realise my calender is slower by a day?


well foot foot foot.
i typed out a long long post.

no more.
gah.


RETYPED !
(simplified as in less words =. ) :

im scared of As.
no confi.
esp after hearing p says she doesnt allow those who score badly to return.
):

i ve got good chers.
but i scared i pissed them off etc.
and hate them eventually ):
got a v negative feel !! )):

took height and weight.
im rather heavy! ))):
but but,
not planning to diet.
even if want, i will fail . =.

i owaes got the feeling that my brain cannot work if i dont eat ?
so so ..
as long as im not v full,
im quite willing to eat.
zzz =.
enlighten me ppl !

oh,
and im saving money !!!
at least for this 2 months.

(hopes my brain will tolerate with me for this 2 months lurh..
and tummy, dont owaes give me gastric when on the so-few-occasions when i dont feel like eating =.= )

ps, note the colours.

argh,, on 2nd thought,
nehmind.
forget it.

lols, not many will understand? i guess.
idk,
i point/say out everything (though may not be so detailed.)
but im still complicated?
lols.



is not the first time i ask.
why is thr 24hrs per day?

idk.



i want the distance ,
i think ...

i used.
used to live simple life.

i can even live days wout phone know.

idk.
scared? fear?
i dont want to get use to u being around.
listening to whatever i hv to tell.

yea, who doesnt love being pampered?
but but,
因为害怕结果，我宁可放弃。

u can object,
i mean, well.
but, that's me.

i do that to omost everything.

i love planning backups plan :

oh, if sway sway got prob,
the most transfer.
if sway sway cmi,
the most retake.
if sway sway cannot get in,
nehmind la, i will blah blah blah.





u know i wont take,
no matter how much u gave.



idk.

i shldnt.
i cant even do the same thing for u.
yeah, i know.
but..
idk.

i doubt u know what i really want.
argh.

but i still force down the food.
i mean, it's not that it's not nice.
it is.
but, i dont like.
gah,
but i cant even cook.
so i shldnt say anything.

yeah.
thankyou n sorry.



Flirt.

okie, random word.
lols. watching qi zi de you huo XD


okie, honest.
maths test tmr.
i feel..
scared?
idk why.
i mean, it's not counted la.
but it's something i will... zai yi ?
damn.




dont give too much.
unless u know when to stop.
if not,
dont give too much.



POHKHEE U love someone, U open urself up to suffering. tat's e sad truth says:
*jiayou

someone says:
*u need to jian you =.= lol since u eat too much

POHKHEE U love someone, U open urself up to suffering. tat's e sad truth says:
*LOLs
* okie
*fine fine
=.=



Goodness.

lots have been telling me recently bout i cant marry etc.
dont know how to cook.
dont know how to do hsework.
v messy and untidy.
etc etc...

argh.

yeap, i just learnt how to cook maggi ! ~

zzz.

and and and .
i just throw my dirty clothes to the washing machine.
and my family were like ...

bro : eh eh .. go see outside de moon.. isit blue?
=.=
sister : OMG OMG OMG ! and go around telling my mummy and daddy what i did
=.=
daddy : yeah ! mei mei grow up le =.=

i forgot what mummy said.
i think she EXPECTS me to do this.
cos she has been naggy past few weeks.
bout how is it possibl that im a girl !



gah........................


side track :
i dont want school tmr T.T



i read this somewhere...

You love someone,
you open yourself up to suffering,

that’s the sad truth.
Maybe they’ll break your heart,
Maybe you’ll break theirs,
and never be able to look at yourself
the same way.


okie .
my sad truth.
i ate 2 meals in 3 hrs.
dammn.


i got no mood to study today.
but thr's still a pile of work.

idk.
i think im tired.
mentally, physically.
i dont thing i use my brain tooooooooooo much recently.
but i mean, it's consider lots after a omost 1 month plus break ?
gah.

idk.
im not feeling well.

im quite sure i can slpt till 3 today.
but i dint.
well.
but i slept 10 hrs?
or so.

still v shagged.

gg out ltr.
thr's things to buy.
yellow or black ?



Different.
very.

well,
the truth is..
im scared.



think think think think.

im full !!! ~
plus shag.

but there's still lots of stuffs to do.
like omg omg omg !

gah.

i realise,
thr's ppl who dont understand my text?
and it's not 1 or 2 ppl.

seriously,
it's not my problem right?



SACRIFICES

delete all the msges.
it's esasier and faster.

may regret one day.
but i think it will be a long long long long time ltr.

bye.

and that's why i ended up,
missing you.

it's not the first time anw.

ps. u are not supposed to catch this post, so dont worry.
too00 many stories to tell.
tooo little time XD

i wont be blogging much,
i think.

at least i hope to quit.

all the fb stufffs etc.

well.
till then.



new phone kinda cmi.
need clear msg.
every now and then, it says 'msg full'. gah.

well,
when im deleting ur msges.
well, i thought i felt something.
touched?
maybe.

idk.

anw,
bye for now.
bye forever.
if there's such word.

i think,
forever only comes true when u hate one person.
not when u love one.

(:

im a happy girl!

pool was fun.

happy bdae satia !
i doubt u will ever read it.

lols.

okie, nites ppl.
7.30am tmrw.

gosh gosh gosh !

my hei yan quan getting more and more obvious!
im a growing girl ):



fun !
but ate.

mum's nagging agn.
bout how an 18 yr old girl can be so messy.

everytime she goes johor,
she repeats this. =.



dont ask me why.

indecisive.
perhaps.



爱我的资格。



learnt 4 dances today.
stressed.
tired.

i noticed i got a pile of hmwork untouch !
damn.

i dont know.

life sucks.

i wont cry.



喜欢一个人。
如果不快乐，不如放手？

noone knows how the future will be like.

(:



defeats the purpose of blogging.
argh.



不想你走


不闻不问
雨下了多久
风急什么
落叶怎么说
你的球鞋还留在我门口
而电脑也挂了谁来修
这时候的心情
是谁也不想见
是谁也不想挽留
感觉不到失落更失落
不觉难过更难过
随便一串嘻笑声掠过
竟也无法忍受
不想只为寂寞而寂寞
只为藉口而藉口
明明心中简单又脆弱
依然挺着不松口
我只是不想
我只是不想你走

shall be my new blogsong if i rmb to change.

bye for now.



sad song.

最后一次的温柔

天空一朵一朵雪花
一阵一阵寒风
刺进我心头

你的天真美丽笑容
掩饰所有哀愁
靠在我胸口

为何你的吻如此冰冷
为何你的眼角泪在流
我知道我们走到缘分的尽头

你说再也没有天长地久的厮守
给我最后一次的温柔
从此分开手
再没有 没有以后

你说再也不能天涯海角一起走
给我最后一次的温柔
转身不回头 不停留
任爱在雪中颤抖

*树枝孤鸟*独白:看见了吗
我正站在红尘彼岸苦苦的守侯
等着接你乘坐来的舨船
在那荒草丛生的渡口
我看见你渐渐的离岸
水阔天长 是我对你的朝手
——匆匆而来 悄悄归去

突然那么多年感情
那么多年守候
都化为乌有

不要再说什么理由
再说什么借口
我不会强求

你用最后一次的温柔
换我最后一次的放手
我知道我们走到缘分的尽头

there's 3 sentences i wanted to highlight.

but forget it (:



天下起雨了
人是不快乐
我的心开始想你了


-----------------------------------


song lyrics.
get stucked in my head.
replaying.

i forget the song title.
but i believe last heard is b4 i went msia.

哭了 才发现自己真的受伤了
你曾对我说 你永远是我的 .....

-----------------------------------

ps. i do live in the past.


random.



从来就不相信人会恨自己爱过的人。

it's still the same old sentence (:



iszit wrong ?
am i wrong ?



i think i know.
but i dont understand.
why?

im sorry.
sorry doesnt work.
i know.

but but but...
get the point right,
i seldom say iam.
at least not last time.

meaning?
it's kinda precious.



thr's something.
i dont know.
cant say.
cant show.

i dont want.

dont ask me.
like i said, i wont say.
mayb at the right time,
u will be able to find out (:



i dont understand th mv.
blur ~~~~~~~~~`


ianw,
i kinda sad.

i just diner-ed 3hrs ago.

and im supper-ing.

i mean, it's 11pm now =.=



i mean, imagine.
this is one of the few times i initiatively go and look for the mv.
omg !

yes, if u noe me well,
u shld know.
im one of the ppl ,
who wont really visit the links u give.
i mean..
lols.
i dont know why.



omg !
i love my new blog songsssssssss.
ps. i added 2.

i like the 2nd one.
my god.

dint like it THAT MUCH last time i heard.
but omg !



你好聪明。

well,
im living a v screwed life now.
how to not hate it?
u tell me.

zz.
okie, everything is sooooo 烦-ing these days la.
and i havent got a v good mood and PATIENCE to settle the probs la.

wt.

i dont know.

i think im so screwed.
im quite 失败 lurhs.

i nvr do anything well.
nvr learn anything well.

well, avoiding problems the only skill i mastered?
well. very.

damn.

kie.
argh .
u suck.
life suck.

test plus hmwk plus ogl plus this idiotic stuff.
damn.

i feel like......................................................

oh f.





thr's always an answer to a question?
emm... at least logical ones.

yeah, there's lots of time , in life,
that u are required to find them for ur own qns.

asking, may be a solution.
it's a shortcut/ an easier way.

it's definitely a lazier way.
but no, not a simpler way.

i dont know.
cos everyone is different.
every as u get may differ(most probably.)

well.

but the thing is...

what's the ans u want?

for ur qn ?


okie.

dont understand?
thn dont bother.

i seldom have clear minds anyway.

anw, since im alr in this topic / random blogging mood.
i might as well write out what i felt like typing in th noon..

well.

I NEVER KNOW HOW TO CROSS THE ROAD.
i mean,, the safe way.

it's gonna be 10th? ( or alr over )
that i did stunts agn.

well,
so everytime, i nearly get ...
things flash in my head.

and everytime it's the same old thing.
what am i gonna regret not doing ?

well,
i will regret not saying i love.

i keep lots in my tiny heart.
once broken, i cant afford to let anything happen agn right?
lessons are meant for ppl to learn (:
and i insist im a fast-learner.

and im v trad.
hahhahahaa

okie, shant say anymore.

privating it shld seriously be considered man.



troubled.
back to the same old problem.
gah.

i should.
i think, i really should.

but im not determined.
and it's really crating alot of trouble..

like oh my.



曲名：不说出的温柔 歌手：范逸臣 专辑：不说出的温柔

不说出的温柔
范逸臣

你是否 忘记了
那时候的笑容
如果我已不在你心中

舍不得 为什么
你说过的以后
留下我能不能圆梦

那天空 云很多
看不见你的轮廓
只剩下 太多来不及说

(是我 你好吗
没什么事
只是想知道你好不好
这是我最后一次打给你了
希望你好好照顾自己)

不说出的温柔
让你离开我
我以为你都会懂
等着你
我 才发现难过

很难说有没有
想念过你的手
可能是 我不愿去触碰

不记得本来你
有没有擦口红
反正是 我已经错过

那天空 云很多
看不见你的轮廓
剩下 太多来不及说

想哭的冲动
开始在失去以后
才等着你的手
拥抱我的寂寞

该说的时候
早应该大声的说
那种认真的沉默
弄巧成拙

不说出的温柔
让你离开我
我以为你都会懂
想哭的冲动
开始在失去以后
已经擦干了泪
为何还有点痛

该说的时候
早应该大声的说
爱已经留下缺口
剩下沉默

不说出的温柔
让你离开我
去拥抱你要的梦
别担心我
我会好好过



曲名：不能跟情人说的话 歌手：范玮琪&刘若英

有时候对一个人 那么用心
却还是搞不清楚 他的逻辑

谈恋爱 谁没演过一点戏
装没事 装忘记 装小心翼翼

有时候和一个人 那么亲密
却还是忍不住想保护自己

谁恋爱 不曾藏一点秘密
留防备 留回忆 留心情

谢谢你总是陪我分享
不能跟情人说的话
我反反复复 你也从不笑我
老是骂他 却又离不开他

谢谢你总是替我收藏
不想跟情人说的话
我胡思乱想 你一直握着我手
让我释放 然后慢慢宽广

别人都说我很坚强
只有你劝我别逞强
爱是漂亮却不完美的天堂
旧了总有需要修补的地方


thumbs up for the lyrics !!



i kinda miss u today.



i dont know why,
but i feel like killing you.
yes, i wont do it , duh.
but , let this be a warning.

oh f.

u successfully pissed me off.

shoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo now.

失去了，才懂得珍惜。
it's not the first time.
yes, when will i learn?



i cannot imagine.

woah , im gonnaspend 1 hr removing my nail polish !
wtf.

worse is, i may use more than half the bottle of nail polish remover.
mum may just kill me.
anytime.



oh ffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffff F !



omg !
wth.

why is it this year?
why does EVERYTHING crash..

zzzzz

i dont know.
there's always a break-down point.



2009!
one of the v v good year i ever have.
i will rmb (:

new year resolution
well,
i nvr believe in it.
failed badly in planning AND following plans.

but still...

1. i wanna score for As! **
2. i wanna learn to piriotise things.
3, i wanna get rid of my indecisiveness and procrastination and blurness!

and last thing i wana say.
i love my fam and frens.
yes, people i will nvr forget. (:


i dont know.
im not a simple girl.
i mean, my thoughts are complicated.
or maybe, i just dont understand myself well enough?

but i just want a simple life.





i passed by kelly's blog.
well.

something i just noe.
it makes me think abit.

i mean,
if u gave me a scenario question,
linking to pregnancy,
i swear, b4 today.
i will (with or without thinking twice) say i will abort it.

but well...


Month One.
Hi Mommy!
I am only 3/4 of an inch long,
But I have all my organs.
I love the sound of your voice.
Every time I hear it,
I wave my arms and legs.
The sound of your heart beat
Is my favorite lullaby.


Month Two.
Mommy,Today I learned how to suck my thumb.
If you could see me
You could definitely tell that I am a baby.
I’m not big enough to survive outside my home though.
It is so nice and warm in here.

Month Three.
You know what Mommy,I’m a girl!
I hope that makes you happy.
I always want you to be happy.
I don’t like it when you cry.
You sound so sad.
It makes me sad too,
And I cry with you even though
You can’t hear me.

Month Four.
Mommy,My hair is starting to grow.
It is very short and fine
But I will have a lot of it.
I spend a lot of my time exercising.
I can turn my head and curl my fingers and toes
And stretch my arms and legs.
I am becoming quite good at it too.

Month Five.
You went to the doctor today.
Mommy, he lied to you.
He said that I’m not a baby.
I am a baby, Mommy, your baby.
I think and feel.
Mommy, what’s abortion?

Month Six.
I can hear that doctor again.
I don’t like him.
He seems cold and heartless.
Something is intruding my home.
The doctor called it a needle.
Mommy what is it? It burns!
Please make him stop!
I can’t get away from it!Mommy! Help me!

Month Seven.
Mommy, I am okay.
I am in Allah’s arms.
He is holding me.
He told me about abortion.
Why didn’t you want me, Mommy?

Every abortion is just…
One more heart that was stopped.
Two more eyes that will never see.
Two more hands that will never touch.
Two more legs that will never run.
One more mouth that will never speak.
even though i don't like kids...
If you’re against abortion, repost!



sometimes it's not ggod to know too many things.
i nvr agree.
but well,
thinking. (:

i prefer a simple life.

i prefer the past, i always do.

i dont think i got good memory.
i mean, not for all things.
but lotsa happenings, the good and bad, i rmb.
i will.
yes, the ppl as well.

when life gets bz, they may slip out of my mind.
but thr are timessssss when they randomly pop out.
and it affects me, it always do..

sometimes i know,
it's not impossible to forget.
i believe time can do the job (:

but...
i dont know if it's right..
to forget.



im suddnly v scared.
i want the old me back.
serious.


(it's more than it seems.)



oh and i swear..
now then i noe there's ppl who read my blog?
well.
super O.O !

kiek,

HAPPYNEWYEAR EVERYONE !
yes. one day late.
but well (:

okie,
i think it's sorta expected ?
i went out on 31st.
i mean.. haha, well.
ignore the post which i say i wont then!


Chalet's a success, imo . XD

okie, pics.
sooon .?
i got lotsa work today.

will be damn stress n bz this yr.
im scared. very very very! ):


i dont know.
kinda lost.
if anything, it wont be this year.
i know.