Currently living a typical mugger's life.

谢谢你的爱 刘德华


不要问我一生曾经爱过多少人

你不懂我伤有多深

要剥开伤口总是很残忍

劝你别作痴心人

多情暂且保留几分


不喜欢孤独

却又害怕两个人相处

这分明是一种痛苦

在人多时候最沈默

笑容也寂寞

在万丈红尘中

啊

找个人爱我

当我避开你的柔情后

泪开始坠落



是不敢不想不应该

再谢谢你的爱

我不得不存在

啊

像一颗尘埃

还是会带给你伤害

是不敢不想不应该

再谢谢你的爱

我不得不存在

啊

在你的未来

最怕这样就是带给你永远的伤害



CHANGE.
idk.

there are blogs i constantly stalk.
well.


im abit 烦.
idk.


i dint go sch agn.
1 week once.
wells =.=


should start work agn sooon.
sian.

idk, life's dull..

im kinda sad for whatever the reason.



LAST WEEK.


#1 took some pics while tidying my bed.
so that it looks neat and tidy.
(cousin and fren coming)





#2 PACKED MY SEC SCH STUFFS (:

MY DROPDEAD GORGEOUS HANDWRITTING then......



ps. i dont use black pen then.
so it's pencil ~yeah.
look like photocopied de right.nice right?XD
pss. i dont know why jc mates dont believe i've got such dropdead handwritting then.


OHYA.

spelling mistakes. :P
spot my mistake.


I LOVE STICKERS (:

Mr Lee / Ms Lee .......
hahas.((:


This is why i hate homelearning ~

THANKS sister !she handcopied these for me (:

THANKYOU SIYIfor printing out sutffs for me (((:
sorrry cos i realise i left them blank =.=


talking bout blank worksheeeets....



thr's much more....but nothing to boost bout...so yeah.....

STICKERS XDDDD
i do collect stickers last time (:

TWEETY TATOO!!!

sticker.

MUM's..to paste walls etc de.



OLEVEL MUGGING PERIOD

maths papersssssssssss ~
left is done.right is undone.
ps. brain cant take maths after hiong periods of doing tooooooooo much papers....
sooo...dint complete.
not that i dw to. (:

kie.
zl.



L.O.V.E.




爬得很高却没有目标
看不到终点
路，该如何走下去呢...

dan jiu yin pa de hen gao suo yi gen pa shuai jiao

yin ren zai gao feng
suo yi lian mai yuan de zhi ge dou mei you.





being tall is deemed to be desired.
that's why tall-ies dont will get all the @%*$)%*$^) if they complain bout how they arent 'seeing' people at the eyelevel or otr issues.



strictly speaking.
things arent going very wrong.

& yes because of this fact.
sometimes it's hard to vent.

i dont complain alot.
i rarely whine.

not because i've got nothing to.

yes, i know who will be there.
always there.
to listen.
bffs, family.


it's just.....
hard to.

back to the first sentence.

idk,
you xie shi hou...
dong xi...
bu shi kan biao mian de.

one who always complain may actually be a happy person.
you know.


idk.
maybe what i need is more than a pair of listening ears.
maybe that's why i dint approach people.

but it's even hard to find a listener,
what more an advisor?
hmm...



HAPPY BIRTHDAY KOE GOI LING.

well, celebrated her bday at fish and co.

no pics ( i mean, all not with me.)

hmm...

brighten up my life quite abit.
XD.













anw, life continue.

KPK , seriously, less than 100 days to alevels !
WHAT ARE YOU DOING!!!

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.




idk, i need a goal.



(: .
though otrs may not understand, but still...
simple actions count.

im contented enough.



obviously i know you are nice and etc and everything.

idk.
thats especially the reason why you got 'bomb-ed' =.=



best option.

as usual, noone understands.
kinda get use/accept this fact already.
fine.

im fine.

maybe it's your fault.
dont be so different.
have normal thoughts,
maybe then the whole world will understand.


i do reflect things.
well, alot.

people say i dont admit mistakes.
well, true.
i agree.
in fact, i will tell others i dont like to apologise.

but first, point out my mistakes.
oh, and relative.
then, weigh.

then come and claim a 'sorry'.

cos i really have to say.
i do reflect.
and will think of manyyyyyyyyyyy possible sides.



i think i start to have this thoughts since....
pschool?
haha.
thats why i say im mature =.=
(seriously, if stands were swaped and one may end up doing the same thing, then one has got no right to criticise etc)




cool,
wrote out dont know how long de thoughts...


well, fated.



noone said being normal isnt good.

why try so hard to be different then ?


i missed the past.
i missed the me.
i missed the people.
i missed everything.

i dont rmb when i last lol, literally.



more than once.

idk, im hard to understand.
dont try.



Didaskaleinophobia.

oh lol.



BLOODY HELL.


idk, i hate it when im affectedby minor minor issues.
suck.

idk.
i hate it when people dont understand and act like they do or try to pursuade you to change your mind when they dont understand what you are going through.


KNOW WHAT?
sometimes it's not that i wanna be direct, it's just....
seriously, cos there are just people whom you said things STRAIGHT INTO THEIR FACES alr yet they still dont understand?


the whole world is selfish,
why shouldnt me?


leave me alone.
seriously.



im a happy girl today!
i slept till 2pm.
omg, 15hours!
mum's cooking suppppppppppppppper nice!
hahas.

but im hungry again.
nooooooooooooooooooo~

and i packed my stuffs.
(though only sec sch ones and some rubbish)
but still, an achievement can !
hahas.

ps. i found out my handwritting super nice till sec 3 can ((:

omg.

hahahs.

cousin came my house with a friend of his today.
idk how long they are gonna stay though.

and woah, his fren can play badminton !!!!!

it's beeeeen long since i exercise.
more than a month...
till ytd's pe.


idk
abit high.
hahas.

but abit sleepy oso =.=
feel like sleeping.

or should i supper?
(:
hahahas.

omg , unhealthy.
no exercise.
plus wake 9 hours, finished 3 meals.

nooooooooooooooo.


kie, whatever.



i've got nothing to say then.


im eating back all the junkfood again.
zzzzzz.

shushi -ed.
2 macflurry (kie 1 and a half) -ed.
pancake -d.
choc -ed.

what's wrong ?
nothing's wrong.

kiek, im abit tired.
off to bathe..



awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.
im a happy kid.
needa bathe sooooooooooooooon.

nice nice nice song. (:



among all human organs or body parts or whatever you called that..
不会说谎的就只有人的眼睛还有人的心。



《如果当时》 (:

为什么 你当时对我好

又为什么 现在变得冷淡了

我知道 爱要走难阻挠

反正不是我的 我也不该要


你和我 曾经有共同爱好

谁的耳边 总有绝句在萦绕

我们俩 用文言文对话真的很搞笑

还笑那曹操贪慕着小乔

天灰了 雨坠了

视线要模糊了

此时感觉到你的重要

爱走了 心走了

你说你要走了

我为你唱最后的古谣

红雨瓢泼泛起了回忆怎么潜

你美目如当年

流转我心间

渡口边最后一面洒下了句点

与你若只如初见

何须感伤离别

nice song (:




S.H.E - 如果你是女孩


你 趁我讨论未来
努力看着荧幕发呆 很忙碌在转台
你 趁我感冒鼻塞
责怪昨天我的裙摆 怎么高过膝盖

不能忍受我说偶像帅 (太奇怪)
却喜欢我做作装可爱 (太无奈 想不开)
不认真 听我的对白
不懂我每个月 心情会固定变坏

不然你来 当一天女孩
亲身经历 了解我为什么开怀
每滴泪的 来龙去脉
爱我所爱 懂我的悲哀
公平地谈一场平衡的恋爱
如果你是女孩 My my my my girl

来 看我选的频道
陪我聊天让我依靠 爱我的姐妹淘
来 模拟我的人生
重复我的呼吸心跳 明白我的需要

又要温柔宽容有大爱 (太奇怪)
又要应付男朋友耍赖 (太无奈 想不开)
亲爱的 别置身事外
可不可以趁现在 假装自己是女孩

不然你来 当一天女孩
亲身经历 了解我为什么开怀
每滴泪的 来龙去脉
爱我所爱 懂我的悲哀
公平地谈一场平衡的恋爱
如果你是女孩 My my my my girl

如果我是你 我会注意
每个女孩 都是艺术品 都该捧在手心
如果我是你 我一定加倍细心
不会吝啬每一天 都说 我爱你

不然你来 当一天女孩
亲身经历 了解我为什么开怀
每滴泪的 来龙去脉
爱我所爱 懂我的悲哀
公平地谈一场平衡的恋爱
如果你是女孩

不然你来 当一天女孩
亲身经历 了解我为什么开怀
每滴泪的 来龙去脉
爱我所爱 懂我的悲哀
公平地谈一场平衡的恋爱
如果你是女孩



曲名：认错 歌手：许嵩 专辑：自定义

那天午后 我站在你家门口
你咬咬嘴唇还是说出了分手
我的挽留和眼泪全都没有用
或许我应该自食这苦果

你的迁就 我一直领悟不够
以为爱已强大的不要理由
心开始颤抖 明白了你的难受
但你的表情已经冷漠

全是我的错
现在认错有没有用
你说你已经不再爱我
我带你回忆曾经快乐的时空
你只是劝我别再执着

全是我的错
现在认错有没有用
你说你喜欢如今的生活
你带我回忆爱里互相的折磨
还告诉了我 别再来认错 认结果



曲名：认错 歌手：优客李林

I Hate Myself 又整夜追逐梦中的你

而明天只剩哭泣的心

怎么才能让我告诉你 我不愿意

教彼此都孤独里忍住伤心

我又怎么告诉你 我还爱你

是我自己错误的决定

我要告诉你 我不愿意



萧闳仁 - 我没有错


我坐在咖啡店 落地窗的前面
雨水洒满整条街 和人们的脸
钢琴的黑白键 搭配过的和弦
我们的爱情 什麽和弦

是我太伤悲还是城市太灰
这样的台北还有什麽好留恋

没有错是我自私的举动
给我藉口 让我这次能够彻底的放手
让我走 别让我 更痛苦的过
不让你伤的更重
I’ll always always love you so


你表情好憔悴 强颜欢笑的脸
你那哭红的双眼 让我好心碎
我愿意 让你飞 不再对你留恋
别让我成为 你的侧脸

是我太伤悲还是城市太灰
这样的台北还有什麽好留恋

没有错是我自私的举动
给我藉口 让我这次能够彻底的放手
让我走 别让我 更痛苦的过
不让你伤的更重
I’ll always always love you so

伤的更重 伤的更重

也许我没有离开的理由(我没有错)
是我没用
无法守护着你一直到最后
别回头 答应我 你会好好过
让我默念一万遍
I’ll always always love you
love you so



came across this sentence in the song lyrics: 世界上最浪漫的一首歌-小鬼

伤过的心也是肉做的



i only know one line of the whole lyrics.
dint even know the title =.=

曲名：真实 歌手：张惠妹

你说的话 在我心中生了根

爱得很深 所以心很疼

记忆 在我的心中翻滚

是不是每一个人

都像我一样笨

只怕再问 对彼此都太残忍

我能感觉 另外一个人

我等 等笑容换成泪痕

爱在崩溃的时候 比较真

太多疑问 知道答案又如何

原来容忍不需要天份

只要爱错一个人

心痛比快乐更真实

爱为何这样的讽刺

我忘了这是第几次

一见你就无法坚持

孤独比拥抱更真实

爱让人失去了理智

会不会是我太自私

拒绝更寂寞的日子

放不开 也看不见未来

难道这种不完美

才是爱情真实的样子



曲名：我要快乐 歌手：张惠妹


又被爱伤了一遍
无所谓 当作成长
刚刚走开的人
烟还点着 味道却淡了
我并不是天生爱寂寞
却比任何人都多
就算把世界给我
我还是一无所有
我要快乐我要能睡的安稳
有些人不抱了才温暖
离开了才不恨 我早应该割舍
我要快乐 哪怕笑的再大声
心不是热的 全都是假的
只有眼泪是真的


把从前想了一遍
谢谢了 伤我的人
想做乐观的人
每种雨声 听了都不冷
我并不是天生爱寂寞
却比任何人都多
就算把世界给我
我还是一无所有
我要快乐我要能睡的安稳
有些人不抱了才温暖
离开了才不恨 我早应该割舍
我要快乐 哪怕笑的再大声
心不是热的 全都是假的
我的决定是对的



林俊杰--突然累了

吃饭吃到睡了
我开车开到傻了
我看书看到你了
开始怀疑我怎么了
说话说到吐了
我写歌写到疯了
我爱你爱到盲了
天知道我又怎么了
不舍得 舍不得 都分手了
舍不得 不舍得 散了
爱是你的 我是我的 完了
原来我只是突然累了
原来我不说了
原来我撑着撑到麻了
原来我不爱了



泪了 - 曾沛慈


天快亮了 能不能别离开呢

沉默像首悲伤的歌 无声视线却模糊了

你要走了 也带走所有快乐

甜蜜的片段散落了

你倦了 心冷了 我哭了



那流星闪过 我们许下一个愿望

要在一起 绝不分离 你怎麽放弃了

星空在闪烁 像你的眼泪 悄悄划过

当你放开了手 离开的时候

有没有一点舍不得我

泪光在闪烁 而我的眼泪忍住 不敢坠落

我还留在黑暗中守候

你却已经远远 离开我




离开我了 梦醒了还剩什麽

我要的幸福消失了

你的心曾经属於我的



那流星闪过 我们许下一个愿望

要在一起 绝不分离 你怎麽放弃了



星空在闪烁 像你的眼泪 悄悄划过

当你放开了手 离开的时候

有没有一点舍不得我

泪光在闪烁 而我的眼泪忍住 不敢坠落

我还留在黑暗中守候

你却已经远远 离开我



有过的快乐我都记得

回忆还旋转着 爱怎麽停了

我们都泪了



星空在闪烁 像你的眼泪 悄悄划过

当你放开了手 离开的时候

有没有一点舍不得我

泪光在闪烁 而我的眼泪忍住 不敢坠落

我还留在黑暗中守候

你却已经远远 离开



idk how to say.
BUT seriously,
i dont seeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee light.


does anyone even understand this kind of feeling ?



i dint go school today.
haven fully recover.
but, im not exactly sick u know.
as in, can go school.
but sick.


well, attendance gettingv. shitty.
dont ask me why.
idk.


i rmb i used to have much more sucky attendance in upper sec.
well, maybe im getting healthier?

dk.

health.
please....
idk, but...
idk, i think the most JKUA ZHANG de is one whole week mc.
like mc really sick =.=

and i got it twice.
i mean, for a normal kid, it's bad right.

anw, i suddenly rmb i used to fall sick often during exam.
since p.school.

well, that means something ?....

i dont like exam.
.=

kie who does.
but...
changed my mindset in upper sec, i think thanks to mr lee?
exam is just a test of knowlwdge (:


pros and cons.

alright.
mixed thoughts.

it's not the first time.

im a simple kid.
serious.

but wells.
im easily contented.
serious.
but im hard to please =.=



please, give me a break.

人心难测。

i feel like hibernating.
i feel the need to...
to isolate.




im sick of the world.
lifesucks.




















maybe maybe maybe.

so my assumption was right.

mayb that's a wrong choice.
maybe i need a break.



should i tell you ?
do you wanna know?

but sometimes,
放手会比keep holding on 还好。

idk.
解脱。




曲名：解脱 歌手：张惠妹

爱是不夜城

回忆像星辰

热泪越沸腾


我越感觉有点冷

变了心的人

越想越伤人


枯坐到清晨

阳光替房间开了灯


想 若结局一样

又何苦再想


想 若让人成长

我为什么怕分手的伤


解脱是肯承认这是个错

我不应该还不放手

你有自由走我有自由好好过


解脱是懂擦干泪看以后

找个新方向往前走

这世界辽阔

我总会实现一个梦


心里有一种渴望勇敢的念头
不要爱我的人再担心我



i miss granny suddenly.
idk why.
sad.
strong feeling.
in the heart.

why?



dont mention bout revision/studying yet kpk.
clear ur pile of holiday homework and get ur sleeping time first.
nomore waking up at 11 plus.
zzz.

kie,
holiday ended.
back to school.
2nd day.
life's been a routine.
i bet tmr and fri gonna be like this also.

reach home like 5plus.
then nap 2 hours.=.=
eat.
watch tv 2-3 hours. =.=
bathe.
do homework.
till 11 plus / 12 plus.
bth.
sleep.


.
.
.
.
.
.

irritated.
i think im doing homework at a omg-slow rate can!



people are born selfish.
but i dont think it's like all....
but those who isnt learn to be when they grow...
u know, cos it's sometimes hard not to.
i mean, yes, if it doesnt put u in any disadvantage, or when consequences are minor..
there's will still be selfishless acts.
but when it does, how many will...
even if they will, for how many people, will they make sacrifices for ?



idk, decided to post this randomly.

if one day i die, what will i regret not doing/saying?

idk.

should be alot...

i will regret not telling my family members, friends how much i love them.
my chers how much i appreciate them.
i will regret not saying sorry to some.
i will regret not living life like life.
i will wonder when's the few times im truely happy.
i will regret not thank-ing those i really wanted to, those who are always there, those who had make me happy.
i will.....
i will....
i will...

gonna miss lots of people.

idk.

btw, watched toystory 3 with wanting, rouhui, ahthe, xinyan, samuel, kiathan, bryan on friday.
nice movie.

hmm...
i dont think so...
but..
if toys really got life... ?

lols.

nah, and just thinking...
it's like...
idk, i rmb i do pick boxes etc de.
the 2nd or 3 box.
etc.
i mean, there's so many rows of boxes.
and all are same.
and...
dk....

you yuan ?
lols.

and for peopple, should be more so right?
idk , of 6,869,736,434 people in the world. (http://www.xist.org/ Population 2010·07·03)

if i manage to recognise you, it's something.
if i manage to know you and become friends than that's wow.

and for family , (:
of the billions of ppl, you all are the only that i live with, and go through lots lots lots with. (:


a random post.

but idk,
just thinking, if i die.
im gonna regret not saying.

i feel like naming...
especially bffs, chers etc.
but....
dk.

i cannot guarantee i rmb every classmates and chers.
but close friends regarless what age i was in, i rmb.
and....
teachers i like, since i start schooling...
i rmb.

yes.