Currently living a typical mugger's life.

but only love can say ~
try again or walk away.

stuck in my head.

okie,
word of today : FINALLY.
there's alot meanings.
it rep what's happening in my world these days.
okok.


have lost touch with books.
omg!!!

wasnt in a good mood recently.
pissing everyone off.
but well, i dont know.
dont really care.
good frens will stay by u, i believe.
cos i think im not the hopeless type..





got too much things to say.
so much that...
i feel like, it's better to remain silent.

well.



maybe...
i should just give up....

idk.

finally.


i nearly laughed when goiling say im v disciplined.

ha ha



omg.
im seriously stressed.
today's not a good day.
i swear i constantly feel tears in my eyes.
omg.

was late for sch, forget to bring all stuffs except maths lect book today.
good job.

there's lotsa work to do.
other than the 2 tutorials.
i swear it's like....


argh.


hate life.

okie, off to bathe.
and i will try to start work....


i eat omg lots today.
thanks to my mood.

ps. i stil feel the tears in my eyes, like. now.
i swear it's scary, i can cry any second.



just reached home not long ago.
tired.

browsing through my archieves....
idk.
wat's wrong with me ?


kiek,
damn super tired today.
i nearly doze off during EVERY lesson today.
but dint lurh (:

ive got a feeeeling ~
im gonna b sick soooon.


doctor ~
i swear i really love seeeeing doctor.
omg,
but taking mc is no longer gooood.
i miss sec school times ~


it's kinda scary.
im still not motivated YET.
argh.

idk, but i swear,
jc life.
not easy.
arghhhhhhhhh....
hang on.

cos i wann the rainbow (:



我要的选择
歌手：蔡依林

后来你终于搬走了
我想你也会舍不得
每次经过那巷口还会想起呢
这位置停过你的车
后来你说都要幸福
逾期还是如此温和
也是我还不清楚失去了什么
这不是我要的选择
怎能说我不爱 难道你不明白
耐心为你等待 抹空多少期待
不管爱与不爱 我该如何辩白
痛的爱哭不出来
我才明白爱真的存在
后来你说都要幸福
逾期还是如此温和
也是我还不清楚失去了什么
这不是我要的选择
怎能说我不爱 难道你不明白
耐心为你等待 抹空多少期待
不管爱与不爱 我该如何辩白
当悲哀哭不出来
我才明白爱真的存在
经过了那么多 你有没有想我
我当然也难过 没有对你说
怎能说我不爱 难道你不明白
耐心为你等待 抹空多少期待
不管爱与不爱 我该如何辩白
当悲哀哭不出来
我才明白爱不能重来




不痛
歌手：张韶涵

一点点痛的感觉
加上一点我对你的思念
承诺不算太遥远
遥远只剩一瞬间
一步步靠近终点
再差一步我们踏上永远
谎言让人太陶醉
陶醉在你给的世界
我不想不愿不去承认我的执着
怕不知不觉无法忍住眼泪不留 oh
是爱伤害了彼此的自由
你不看不听不说为什么要离开我
我不哭不笑
只剩下沉默
带着我的骄傲高飞远走
紧握过的双手
拥抱过的温柔
所有的对错
跟着脚步你一定带走
Oh



i dk.
if i was to go bbq ltr,
i need to do my work now.
but im stuck infront of the com.
plus stomach's giving me problem !

ran toilet 4times in 2hours.
how great.

oh freak.
i think i neeed the doctor again ~



im freaking tired.
plus kinda sick.
most probableably to tidbits eating ytd.
or is it the curry agn ?

argh.
hate how weak my stomach is.
okie, but ive got noone to blame except myself?

kiek,
oh, and im so freaking pissed/upset ytd la.

my phone was sent to reformat.
and i lost all my pics.
i mean, im glad i alr transferred (and posted) all my batam pics.

but pics from the camp !!!!
OMG.

damn zzzzz.

again, only got myself to blame.
who asks me to spoil the phone like...
it's like a month old i think !?
got it in jan!

argh.

and due to tiredness,
wake up so late =.
so dad's just take my phone, while i was slping.
i mean, i know he took it.
subconcious know?
argh.



If you want the rainbow, you must put up with the rain.
D. Parton



BATAM TRIP !
13 FEB - 14 FEB !







黑Girl - 谁说

送我回家的路上 你沉默默不说话
我努力讲 冷的笑话
我想我明白了吧 你的冷漠会解答
我们之间 都在逞强

别说我还会遇到 更好的男孩
别说还是朋友 太老派
该分开 就分开

谁说我没长大
谁说我不够坚强
就算受了伤 也不会害怕
有一天 幸福再造访

谁说我放不下
谁说不能去原谅
虽然有时候 还是会想他
对的人 却在另个方向

谁说我没长大
谁说我不够坚强
就算受了伤 也不会害怕
一个人 有好多梦想

谁说我放不下
谁说不能去原谅
虽然有时候 还是会想他
离开了 才能各自飞翔



IM BACK.
woah,
kie , the dishes thr are llike o.o
it's not surprising that im goonnna gain agn...
awwwwwwwwwwwww.
and im freaking tired, off to bed.
i nearly puke, mayb from the whatever it's called, or mayb cause kfc.
i swear i cant eat fastfood, zzz.

kiek, pics on fb (most likely) soooooon (:

okiee,
i will tok to the world like after 2pm tmr?
lols,
freaking tired, sure will slp till then.
and ps, there's a time lag.

pss. karaoke till count down ish freaking shiok.
and throat hurting tooo !



kinda excited.
plus scared.

and im so damn sad..
i gained,
cant fit in my new shorts.
sadded.


okie,
im like tearing everyday ?
omg, tooo tired.
but kel so-called reminded me that i slp like 6hrs today?
BEFORE 1.36pm to 7 plus pm.
coool.



i just realise, u cannot end with '' >< '' when blogging!



it's scary.
how a smile from u make me melt.


kiek.
i just haad my diner. XD
curry chicken + bagua + rice.
so damn love !
but it's fattening ~

hello, it's chinese new year cum valentines' day kie,
with all the goodie food and chocs....
dont gain then v loser, right ? (:
hahahaha.


okok.
gg pack my bag.
heading batam,
9 plus am tmr morn ~

woah !
i hope my phone survive ~
i wannnn take many many many photos.
yeah,
will be back only on sunday nite nite nite.
so, happy chinese new year and valentines' day in advance (:
i like this year , somehow >< haha



it's the little things.

im starting to appreciate.
thanks to 2010 camp (:

okie,
lots asks me why am i so meesssy recently.
seriously,
idk.

oh ya,
afew ask if im sporean toooo.
koreans/vietnamnese ...........
okok.

许茹芸 - 我绝对不说我爱你
歌词吾爱 带你心飞

我绝对不说我爱你
话说太过没意义
感情已满溢怎会没有痕迹
我不愿是你眼中的一颗沙粒

我怎么去说我爱你
说是愚蠢的勇气
听见你可能的一句对不起
我不知我能拿什么潇洒抗拒

每一次见面吸不到空气
我怀疑你有令人窒息的武器
一委屈一任性又一妒嫉
只能恨你怪你爱你混淆自己

我绝对不说我爱你
这是我们仅剩的默契
我相信那是人和人最善良的距离
爱不了你又何苦为难你

我绝对不说我爱你
我连眼泪都埋在眼底
我讶异我可以也愿意保住谜底
让你感觉我是如此神秘

我对谁都是孩子气
唯独对你最理智
生命有好多的道理没道理
看不见的未来我竟然不在意


i think i post this up b4.
current edit.
loves (:



stop.
i need a break.

super shagged.
reach home like 9plus 10 this 2 days.
shag ttm.

gg batam on sat (:

next week will b bz,
or rather, im starting to get really bz.

all the undone work, the work i missed from orientation, work to be handed in, the tests and exams, Alevel getting near.....

hmm...

i dk,
i neeed a break from everything.
i dont even have enough rest?

soooo feel like tearing.
argh.



Energy ~
i need you.
omg.



WHAT THE FUCK.

yes, i dont mind.
yes, u can take my phone.
yes, u can stop giving money.
i dont mind starving.
yes, u can help me quit sch.
it's giving me headache.

and yes,
i dont mind dieing.



i dk,
but im getting use to it.
phone. silence. (:


im wondering why i so love txting.
im wondering why i can tok so much while txting/msning/fbkiing but just not online.
im wondering.

maybe bcause i really hate life.
the way life is.

i dont like toking to most ppl face to face.
i feel weird, somehow?
i mean those im really not v close to.


yeah,
and after all the hi-ness i have today.
i realise, honestly,
im not used to it.


but it's okie,
i may one day (:



Time is flying at a pace i cant catch. ):

i dk how to describe what im feeling...
but....

life kinda sucks.
again -.


met kel today.(:
i swear im depriving of meet-ups with my friends loh ~
argh. ):



okie.

i dk,
im not feeeling v good.
there's still pile of hmwk to be comppleted -.
and tests.
well, i feel like getting mc, but but but...
shldnt.


argh.

im lacking of slp.
and cause of this, im throwing my temper everywhere.
i mean, little things just piss me off.

and sry,
when i throw temper,
seriously, like i wtf care how u feel.

so ,
leave me alone.
dont piss me off.

cos things will get ~
and im sorry, i dont/wont apologise.
(paradox?)

oh, i think i fail TCA1 BADLY
gah.

i dk,
gp tution ?
but i feel like getting physics one -.
and chem and maths.

i feel the stresss alr.
work's gettting out of hand,
i think it's me.
cos i cant keep saying that 'oh i cant do this chap..'
when this sentence is like applying to EVERYTHING im studying now.

yes, wtf.
life sucks.



OMG !
ive got lots to say..

orientation's loved (((:

i rmb i dint post much bout my orientation last year.
but i found out i do rmb lots, still...

i rmb Eve and Andy.
Eve's the SCDC attache, she dint get to join us for some games.
i rmb she cried.
i rmb i thanked her during eweb, without telling a reason.
i saw Andy, he came back.
i rmb last year, i wont be so friendly to initiate a hi.
even if i do, i did it in a more shy way lurh.
but during this year's SSS1 (1st nite) i tap Andy on the shoulder and said hi la.
so proud of myself (:
yes, Orientation 2010 changed me,
cause me to be less dao.
i hope i will kice the dao-ness forever okie.
haha.
i rmb i didnt get to play telematch on the 2nd day.
i did this year (:
but i missed the Finale, cos im an SCDC attache ~
i rmb how our class always failed to play games during mealtimes.
it's like by the time that we either wait for everyone's to finish the food
or when some body finally initiate to start a game,
it's Family time (when we do all the cheerings) or we have to go for dances/games.
i rmb we cause Andy to get scolded.
cause we were shattered on the 1st evening.
i rmb the ogls and the pcs were pumped by Mr Leow during SSS.
sorry.
i rmb we finally get to play Cling-Cling on the 2nd day (((:
i rmb dumping my partner in the middle of mass dance, tgt with mel mel and joined huayian-s in the train thingy.
i rmb i dancing with weijie during slow dance after being stopped for forming the train thingy.
i rmb he commented that 'it's boring to just keep walking''
so we did some turns.
i rmb we got more songs for slow dance last year. (:
i dint get to dance much during jj nite this year !


okie.
after all the things i ve rmbered,
now i will talk bout the things i will rmb (:

I LOVE OG 26 !
(admin og ! )

i know i failed (BADLY) at rmbering names.
i know if i see you peeps in sch, even during the orientation camp right,
ido say hi etc..
it's like i know u were from my og, but i dont know ur name.
and worse still, there are some whom i know i wont rmb,
cos i dint get to tok to all of u.

i dint get to tell u all that u were a bunch of friendly ppl!
i enjoyed taking u all, serious. <3s>

I LOVE OG 36 !
(orientation og ! )

okie, i oso cant rmb all of ur names.
and i dint get to tok too all of u all too.
and i keep mia-ing, and dint join u all for Games 2 (during day 1), Finale,
i dint get to eat mealssssss with u all too.
sorry.
i dint say anything during jj nite,
i dk what to say.
Thanks Nikki for doing the toking (((:
i dint say alot during eweb oso.
i really....
i dk.
i feel that u guys were REALLY v bonded, and more than half of u are potential leaders !
im sry i dint teach u ppl any cheers, or start any cheers.
i really hope u all dont think that u all got a boring ogl.
sorry.
but after the eweb,
i were really touched.
with all my mia-ing etc, u all still thanked me (:
and i swear it's amazing how u girls followed us and do the huggings during jj nite !
i swear it's like o.o when u guys when up on stage and give Mr Leow a hug.((:
i want to thank those who help out for food, help otrs in the group to be more enthu, those who hug me when i cried (:

ok, at first i thought and felt abit sad that..
i dk, u all were so bonded that u left me and nikki out...
it's like, i always got a problem finding a place to slot in and sit.
i dk where should i slot in...
it's like whenever u all help to take food, and u all went ' need take how many? ',
i replied ' how many ppl are in ur class ? ', yes some of u reply ' 24' and start taking...
i dk what to say....

but it's like, what Mr Leow had said,
ogls are not the main thing.
as long as u ppl are bonded as a class (:

and after ur thanks and hug,
i swear thr's no more such sad thoughts....

all my time, energy etc were well spent!
i swear.

and i will get all of ur nos from u all soon !

I LOVE F4!
Phoenix is burning hot ~

i admit i dont love u ppl initially.
but when the camp ended,
idk.
it's like....

i dint tresure.

ytd, after the camp....
it's the first time i joined u ppl for a meal ytd.
like finally. (;
pizza hut.
and dessert.
went crazy standing outside ntuc and laughing for like 20 mins ? (:
i swear i dont rmb the conver alr,
but i know i laugh till i nearly teared.
yes, it's been long since i laugh SOOOOO BADLY.
thanks ppl. <3s.

no more zhenyuan's spam msges on meetings, what to wear, what to bring.):
no more family meetings.):
no more dance practice.):
and lots of no more.... ):

but i swear i wil rmb.

and

im so glad that i manage to take pics with ALL of you! some pics, i look damn cui, but still, i will have it uploaded very soon (:

love love loves !

SCDC ! (:

again, admit that i was like -.
dry-run.

but...
agn, dint treasure.

have fun helping out with the ballon arc (by passing the balloons).
and the deco for jj nite !
get to know some seniors too (:
it's like, yes, i dint do much,
butwhen all the activities under scdc is loved,
it's like, i can claim some creds too la.
happy happy happy ! XD

kinda sad that i dint manage to take pics with u ppl.
i dkif there will be any chances next time.
but if i do, i will grab u ppl and a cam.
promise (:

i love orientation 2010 !
thanks all who make me love it so much.
i dint regret joining.
yes, thanks all who encourage me to join !!!!!
serious.

i will rmb it.

kie, now back.
reality.
got the feeling of 与世隔绝-ness during the camp.
like...

when searching for mop on 2nd day,
passed by 09S16,
and will go like ' u are what og ? '
(HHAHAH mel ! )

and when mel called for cake-cutting,
' eh! faster come, they are in the canteen! '
wil go like ' who? F4 in the canteen? '

oh yeah,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ONG ZHEN YU !
6th Feb.

really sorry, dint get to join the cake-cutting.
but i was just near-by.
i sang along the birthday song okie !
so dont hate me soooooooooo much.
sorry.


on this note,
sorry those who tried to find me/ asked for dance or anything,
but i dint get the chance to entertain u.
im sory.
i wanted toooo, SERIOUS.
but busy. ):





kiek, back to lect notes and homework.



shitsssssssssss.
running late. zzz



FINALLY !
thr's time to online.

test's over.
for now.

camp's coming !
omg !

hoho.


im a happy girl.
( i just need to lose some weight:P )

started choc-ing and ny biskuit -ing alr la.
and / but the ~ thing is....
FINISHING -.

okok.

life's so-so.
i ve got pics.
but my phone's charging.
ltr need go sch camp alr, u know u know ~
lols.
(ps kel, i think i send u the pics next time? as in when we meet.)



IVE GOT NTH BETTER TO DO NOW.
im lazy to recheck what i packed,
so, hope i dint forget anything.

yeah.



OH I SWEAR IF I JUST KICK ALL THOSE CHOCS/BISKUITS/PEARNUTS/MILO AT 10PM.

-5 KG PER WEEK WONT BE A WOW WOW WOW THING.